I call

I call
You hear
I am Yours
yet disjointed
are my thoughts

Darkness all around me
But Lord
with You
there is Light

Loneliness comes upon me
even when surrounded
by many
But You remain
constant
You do not leave
my presence
and I am comforted

My body is weary
and restless,
movement escapes me
But You, O Lord
bring peace,
a calmness to my soul

Bitterness over turmoils
past and present
churns
But You
have enabled me
to endure
and be patient
as I go,
whatever the outcome

I do not understand
Your ways
But I know
Your Way
is the best way,
the only way,
the right way.

O Lord,
help me
to accept all
that comes
The good
with the bad

Help me O Lord
to live
fully live
to life
prolonged
to death
however soon

You will not give me
more than I can bear
for You are with me
You carry my burden
You enable me to endure
You bring me assurance
I can rest in You,
the shelter of Your wings.
I am free in You.

(c) February 29, 2012

Silence

Silent we
First Word
Last Word
Not mine
Not yours
But His

Waiting
Listening
Hearing
Speaking
Obedient to Him

Are we?

Silent to His Word?
Listening to His Word?
Hearing His Word?
Speaking His Word rightly?

(c)  February 27, 2012

A visit ...

We visit
We part
Steps retreat
The door closes
The silence
The longings begin

Replayed
over and over and over again
Why is it so
Why must it be
Is it useless, meaningless
Or is there some grand plan
to be gleaned
from everything
in a former day
that only our Father God
knows and in His wisdom,
leaves us to ponder,
however disturbing
that may be.

Remember ...
the past,
but not to dwell.
A visit.
Remember ...
you accepted.
Jesus died to bring you
new life
and you accepted ...
You accepted
His offering, His gift.
Accepted
the offering of a
new life, a better life.
Remember ...
yesterday,
many years ago,
last month,
the day before today,
but live ...
today,
this moment,
for it is enough.
Tomorrow ...
we plan, but
may it be with a
new hope,
not an old pain.

In looking back,
don't let that glimpse
be your destruction.

You gave your past life
to Jesus
Let Him build your life today
And live in a new life forevermore.

(c) February 20, 2012

In the mood?

We cannot be
in the
"right"
frame of mind,
"in the mood"
 before we have
an encounter
with God.

God
is all around us,
waiting for us
to join Him,
interact with Him,
but we cannot
wait
and wait
and wait
some more.

What do we wait for?
A better time?
There is
no better time
than now.
We wait and then
when our numbered days
are finished,
there is no time.

No time to wait,
no time to begin.
The right time,
the right mood
escapes us.
We are no more.

We need
to be
ready.
How to prepare
 It certainly
is not
by doing
all there is to do
whenever
we please
with no thought
of another.

We say
practice
makes perfect.
What kind
of perfect
do we
achieve.
Practice
makes things
come together,
jell.

Are you
"in the mood?
to practice?
Practice
living,
learning,
teaching,
hearing,
listening,
obeying.
Perhaps not.

Not inclined
to be
nor
inclined
to practice
to be.

But God
He is
still waiting
He waits
whether
we are
in the mood
or not.

He waits
for that
chance
encounter.
He waits
for you.

He waits with love.

(c) February 18, 2012

God frees us from our imprisonment

We are
all
imprisoned.
Perhaps
not
behind bars
within
small cubicles,
waiting ...
for release,
freedom.

But yet,
imprisoned
nonetheless.
Trapped.
Bodies
laden with
unending pain,
cancerous sores,
reminders
of
former days
broiled in sin
caring not for any
one
other.
Straddled between
what we wish
and
what is,
fearful
of
what happens
when we say no
to either side
and
fall;
over and over
we tumble
into an
unknown,
ever widening
hole.

Who will
catch us,
who will
be
our
protector?

We cry out,
but who
will hear
our
screams
of terror
in the
night
and
in the day,
hours unending?

God
will.
Our
comforter.
Our
counselor.
Our
protector.
Our
pillow of restful sleep.
Our
everything
every
time.

God.

Our release
from
agony
...
we can be
set free
like
a butterfly
from
its
cocoon.

Set free
to be.

God will.
God can.
He is
My rock
My hope
My redeemer

I am His.

(c) February 17, 2012

prayer ...

Prayer...
a flowing
of ourselves
to God
who knows
our
every
need.

(c) February 17, 2012

Only the best

I ask 

for guidance

I ask

for Him

to show me

a better way

I ask 

and He answers

Yet

the answer He gives

Is not

entrenched into my being

I do not hear the answer

I do not hear ... 

I ask

for guidance

and He provides

guidance.

He says,

“I wouldn’t if I were you.”

“Are you sure that is what you really want to do, my child?”

And where am I?

Why do I not hear?
Surely I am listening.

Is it because

Satan knows his part so well

knows how to dig deep

how to invade

into my

personal space

knows how to pursue

my desires and wants and wishes

how to snag me

so all thought of

pleasing My Lord

vanishes?

Oh!

woe is me.
The Lord is

not happy with me.

I  ask

He answers

He has answered before

Time and time again

I continue to ask

He still answers.

When will I hear?

When will the still small voice

Of my precious Lord

reach my inner being

and I will respond

in loving obedience?

He wants only

The best for me.

Do I?

(c) February 11, 2012